I'm sorry, I must have misunderstood. I think I may have confused you with someone else. I was thinking your husband was not working for a long time and you had just lost your job. I'm bonkers!
I know you feel bad slz, but you did the right thing and you should be proud of that. Realizing you have a problem is the first step. Taking action to get help, like you did by getting your husband involved is the 2nd step. You're doing a great job at catching yourself.
Keep up the good work, and I hope things get easier for you.