Right there with you
My husband and I are both bipolar. (we both didn't know it when whe married) He has been Dx much longer than I have, so he has a better time dealing with than I do. I have spent the last few days weepy. My kids are 11, 8 and 5- so they realize that mom is acting diffrently than all the other grownups are. I don't hide the fact that I am bipolar (most people think it is weird, but then the stigma disapears) and it helps to explain when people see me crying at random times.
Tonight I am having a really rough time. I have a lot of RA pain (joints) and the meds make my stomach hurt right now. I've spent most of the day crying- so I have a headache too. My husband cannot take the night off of work and my kids are away camping. I'm home in my own pity party. I had a good friend come over at my husband's request today- and it was a great distraction. She's one of those friends that you can cry at and laugh at in the same hour.
----lost track of what I was talking about. Just know that I am here with you.
Even though I do not understand where I am going on the path that God has laid out for me, I must submit to His plan and trust that He will take me where I need to be.
Bipolar treatment-Lamictal, 200mg, Mood stabelizer, daily(main side effect: brain fog) Bipolar treatment-Cymbalta, 40mg, Antidepressant, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting, insominia) Anemia, Fatigue treatment- Iron supplement, 65mg, daily(main side effect: constipation) Insominia treatment- Ambien, 10mg, daily(main side effect: amnesia eppisodes between taking pill and falling asleep) Mania treatment- Alprazolam, .25mg, Very rarely(main side effect: fatigue, slowing of thoughts, depression of CNS, can't take ambien or vicodin when on it) RA treatment- Plaquenil, 400mg, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting) RA treatment- Methotrexate, 25mg, 1X weekly(main side effects: hair loss, stomach upset, mouth sores, sore muscles, fatigue, brain fog, compromised immune system, decreased Folic Acid absorption) GI upset treatment- Leucovorin Calcium, 10mg 1x weekly(main side effects: ?) Folic Acid defintioncy- Folic Acid, 1mg, daily(main side effects: ?) Multi-mineral Supplement (main side effects: constipation, GI upset) Constipation treatment- Docusate Sodium, 200mg, daily(main side effects:?) pain control- Motrin, 800mg, PRN Q6hours daily(main side effects: GI upset, decreased clotting) Pain Control- Vicodin, 5-500mg, PRN Q12hours 3-4 times weekly (main side effects: brain fog, fatigue)