I'm so very sorry for the very difficult time that you are going through right now. That saying, "when it rains it pours! OMG...you really got it bad!
You HAVE TO do something! I agree with the other posters. Sounds like you need to try something new besides everything else that didn't work. You really need to get help for the drinking but I've always heard from other alcoholics you HAVE TO WANT the help! Have you had a sponsor in the past?
Also you mentioned that your family was helping you out some. I'm sure if they knew HOW BAD your condition was at the moment they would extend their help even further. You need to find the strength to open up to them and let them know HOW BAD things really are for you. You should at least give them a chance...more heads are better than one at figuring things out.
Wishing you wellness. Keep us posted.
I've read all your posts and posting the same reply to all of them so that I am not repeating myself.
Why did you lie? Why won't you consider going to the hospital? I've read your other posts and it seems you've tried everything else but this. This may be what works for you.
You will be in a controlled enviornment and they have a better chance to really try different combinations of medications and keep close tabs on you to see how you are reacting to them.
You will be around different therapists and group meetings all day and seeing a pdoc quite often since the RN's will be giving them daily updates.
Your therapist wouldn't have said that comment to your mom unless she thought it was necessary.
Please reconsider. You are just as important than anyone else in your family and you shouldn't think otherwise. Everyone has their own set of health problems. You need to stop holding things in. Your issues are just as important. You're only setting yourself up for a meltdown.
Please do the best thing for yourself.
Wishing you wellness!