Just thought I would give all of you an update on how I'm doing.
Very irritable and the slightest little thing sets me off. It could be something that I'm listening to on the radio, or something I've read, or stories that I heard, traffic, people in stores, etc. that can send me fuming! I've been like this for a long time now and I'm working with my pdoc on med adjustments and also lots of therapy. It seems I do my best when I am all alone and I mean ALL ALONE...not even dealing with anyone on the telephone. Luckily I have the house to myself during the daytime.
I'm also very compulsive when I get manic and can't stop moving or cleaning. I make lists on top of lists and get frustrated when I can't complete everything little thing on them. I feel like I'm just sooo behind. But, if I don't write things down, I will completely forget about them. In reality it's nothing big that I haven't completed for the day or week, but it bugs the heck outta me!
I'm trying to spend more time on my Art Therapy that helps me a lot. It's hard to get all my frustrations out in words, but I find that if I can draw it on paper, I feel a release and can better describe what I'm going through plus do a little analyzing of it too. I also like to mess around with some oil and soft pastels art. I'm not an artist, but I'm having fun messing around with it and learning new things about working with them.
Also I've been listening to some New Age Spa Music that has been very calming. It takes me to a whole other place that I can get everything off my mind and really relax. Maybe some of you would want to try it.
Here is a sample at:
Still having a struggle with some other stressors in my life right now. Thank goodness for therapy! Oh, as you can see, I'm not sleeping too well though.
I'm muddling through though. Trying to take one day at a time. Or I should say, allowing myself to take one day at a time.
That's it in a nutshell for me.