You have my sympathy bluetiger. You are not alone in this kind of frustration. It hurts when you do everything right, when things seem to be wonderful, and then suddenly you are doing everything wrong in their eyes.
If you know you don't treat her badly, don't buy into it. Its my experience that the disorder causes the sufferer to see the one closest to them as the enemy who is responsible for all of their imagined ills.
You posted back in June that she was started on some trial samples of medication. Did she continue on her medicine? Has she gotten any therapy or counseling?
If she can stay on a treatment regimen, there is hope that things will become more normalized and everyone can have a rewarding life together. The key is that she must be willing to work at it, accept your support and listen to you
openly when you express your concerns about
any signs you see.
You part includes making sure you provide an environment that is low stress, that you don't attack her for the things she can't control, that you understand what her triggers are and try very hard not to set them off.
If you are still committed to her and your marriage, then all you can do it support her and be ready to welcome her back when she is ready to return. In the meantime, take care of yourself and your children.
(Mine is leaving, refuses to believe her BP has anything to do with it, and I don't have the strength to battle it anymore.)
Post Edited (ImDealing) : 8/28/2009 8:16:31 PM (GMT-6)