I have been gone for a bit....touching base...

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loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 9/11/2009 11:15 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi everyone, been going through my trials and tribulations.  For a quick catch up, I am still out on stress leave from work.  It is taking a lot of rest to get me caught up.  It has been 6 weeks now.  I am better, the panic and anxiety attacks are calming (as long as the office no longer calls), the depression is still here but lessoning over time and life at home is so-so.  My H is loving and supportive one day, and a pain in the rear and impossible the next.  My kids are overall trying hard to be supportive of me, however my oldest is starting to really buck heads with his dad.  Not only are they both BPII, but he is at the stage of being a teenager where the pounding on the chest begins.  I feel bad for him.  His dad is really hard on him, and some of the time my S is stepping in to defend me right now since I don't have the stamina.  My S gets mad that his dad is having such exaggerated reactions to such trivial and small things.  He really thinks it is unfair.  I couldn't agree more.  It is VERY hard to live with and my H simply doesn't see it.  I am still seeing the pdoc and therapist.  I am hoping to be ready to seek a new position by month’s end.  I guess when you push yourself to the breaking point to keep it all together when you are the none BP in the house....we can crack too.  Although in my case, it was having a highly abusive work situation that pushed me over the brink.  I am doing better though, and will be just fine in time.  I just have not been too up to writing.  But I do stop by and read posts occasionally.  In time, I will be back more.  Hugs to you all, and wishing you well.  LFW


mogli
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   Posted 9/12/2009 5:01 AM (GMT -7)   

LFW--big, big hugs!!  I am so sorry to hear you have been struggling.  I am so glad however that you have taken the time for yourself, and you are away from that abuse at work.  I can relate to that kind of treatment in the workplace and how it effects us all.  My heart goes out to your son.  He must be going through so much right now, and it sounds like you are in a tough position....all the while, you need to try to focus on yourself to get well! My...!  Well, I know that you can get through this.  It will take time, but it's good that you have the professional support in place.  That is really important.  I hope that you find the new job you need for when you get back on your feet.  You deserve the best for yourself.

As for me, I have been away from HW for a bit now too.  I will be posting an update later today.  More big hugs, talk soon.  Take care of yourself LFW.


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mommy.michele
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   Posted 9/12/2009 9:21 PM (GMT -7)   
LFW....I hope your time away from work will continue to lead you in the direction of feeling better. I have a teenage daughter...even without BP they are handful, so I feel for you. Try to keep concentrating on feeling better....and keep us posted
"Just because you're in the driver's seat, doesn't mean
you have to run people over." ~ Fred Pausch


sukay
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   Posted 9/12/2009 11:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Well Hello LFW!!!!
 
I'm so glad that you posted an update!  I thought we had lost you! shakehead
 
I'm glad that your starting to heal and feel better. 
 
The first thing I thought of when you said that your son is starting to buck heads with your husband is that maybe your husband will finally realize that maybe it's not just YOU who is over reacting to his exaggerated reactions to such small things and realize that it is HIMSELF he needs to look at!  I'm sure with both your husband & son being BP it can drive you completely bonkers and be totally exhausting at times!
 
I'm glad your still getting help for yourself!  Never forget that you health is very important too!
 
I wish you well on your search for a new job when you feel you are ready for that.
 
We are always here for you.  Please don't forget to pop in let us know how things are going! blush
 
P.S.  Is your husband still involved with his therapy or are you two still going together?
 
 

loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 9/15/2009 8:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you guys for the kind words and support. It is always helpful to hear from you. And yes, not only am I in individual therapy at the moment....but....my H and I are still in couples. It helps. Hugs, LFW

sukay
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   Posted 9/18/2009 2:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi LFW,
 
Glad to hear that you hubby is still involved with couples therapy.  I was just wondering...is your son with bp also in therapy?
 
Has your husbands attitude towards receiving more treatment changed any?  Has he seen his pdoc recently or had any medication changes?
 
I know it's only been a week, but I still have you on my mind and miss hearing from you.  But I totally understand that you need your time.  I'll see you around.
 
(Hugs) smurf
 
 

loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 9/20/2009 10:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Sukay, EVERYONE it feels like is in therapy in this house.  Yes, pdoc seen regularly by all.  H still about where he was on owning front, but trying hard to be supportive of me.
 
I'm hanging in but still not feeling up to much on the social front.  Please forgive me.  Thank you for thinking about me.  A touch of sunshine for my day tongue    Hope you are doing well.  Big Hugs....LFW

sukay
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   Posted 10/5/2009 10:38 PM (GMT -7)   
  :-) Hi LFW,
 
Sure always on my mind.  I understand about keeping a low profile.  I've been doing that myself.  Glad to hear you and hubby are still in therapy.  Please keep us updated.  It's nice to know that you are still with us.  (((Hugs)))
~sukay~
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serafena
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   Posted 10/6/2009 7:50 AM (GMT -7)   
I think about you all as well and hope everyone is good. Let us know how things are going.

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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER

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