So I was at a card game last night and my brother was about 1/2 drunk and goes on this rant to the whole group about my mental health. He was like "I remember when she tried to ********, then the next thing you know she's always partying and has like five boyfriends!"
(This was a pretty rude way of summing up things that happened like 7 years ago) His little rant just came out of the blue.
Everyone's kinda looking at me like I'm crazy, and I can feel tears welling up. So I'm like, "You know what was going on. I'm pretty sure those were both related to whatever is wrong with me."
Then he says, still in front of the whole group, "Yeah, they thought you were bi-polar. But, I've figured out what bi-polar is - it's female. I've known 20 people who were bi-polar - they were all women."
I'm just sitting there, stunned. So I finally say, "You know, just because someone is moody doesn't mean you can take it upon yourself to diagnose them bi-polar. A doctor has to do that."
So I was just sitting there at the table in the middle of the room, holding a hand of cards. We're halfway through a poker game - I can't really just get up and run, but it was all I wanted to do. Everyone was just kinda standing around staring, my mouth is hanging open, and I can feel the waterworks coming on bigtime.
Finally, the guy next to me was like "So are you going to bet on that hand?" and everything kinda started back moving.
He doesn't know half of what I've been through, or that I'm struggling with depression at this very moment. But, I don't know why he thought that was appropriate to tell all of those people, or what brought it up. I think it was because someone commented on me being "too meek."
It just scraped up a lot of hurt. It also picked at one of my pet-peeves. I hate that people call anyone who is moody "bi-polar"!!!