Well one thing has changed in my life just this week in fact. I started a new job, I'm worried that it's gonna get stressful cause I work for a CPA but at this point it's extra money for my family and will help my hubby out. The hours are good cause I only work M,T,TH,F 9 - 3:30 and I'm off on Wed. I actually have work that I need to work on this evening I just haven't gotten around to it yet.
I saw my pdoc on Monday and we upped the Seroquel to 200 mg (which I did last night and I slept til noon today oops) and she has me on Klonopin now for the anxiety.
I know that I am still feeling depressed and my anxiety is still off the charts. I guess this job is a good thing but right now I think it's taking on a little too much right now since I'm trying to get myself back on track but I gotta do what's best for the family right now. I can't really tell the hubs that this is how I feel right now cause he is so excited and glad he's getting a little extra help. So I'm just toughing it out but yet again it's not putting myself first and making sure that I take care of me. I know the job is gonna be stressful at first cause the person I work she's going through a tough time so I'm basically going in and organizing everything for her. Heck I can't even organize my own life and get myself back on track much less fix someone else's life.
Oh well it's what life has handed to me and I gotta make the best of it. I go to see my Pdoc in another 2 weeks and see what happens. I just wish I hadn't agreed to this job sometimes yet I know that I am helping my family out.
Zanaflax, Savella, Seroquel, ambien and occasionally a pain killer
Fibro, Bi-Polar, PCOS