I hear ya! You know just like any other illness, if you want to get better you have to stick with the program. You have to realize that you are going to have to be on medications and you need to take them every day and not stop.
What would happen if someone with high blood pressure or diabetes stopped taking their medication? Eventually they would become very ill. The same with bipolar. You need to stay on a wellness program of continuing to take you medications daily and realizing it is the responsible thing to do to manage your illness.
Your husband is supportive to you. You owe it to him and yourself to work on keeping yourself healthy. I know the desire to go off your meds will be there from time to time but that is something that we have to learn to overcome and be disciplined about. Make the decision to stay well.
Can you incorporate talk therapy for yourself? Most people with bipolar do as it helps tremendously.
I understand about the long wait to get into seeing your pdoc. That is the trouble with mental healthcare...there has to be a better way to get us in to seeing the doctor sooner. In the meantime try to keep a journal of your moods and actions and start making a list of questions for yourself so that you are fully prepared for your visit and can make the most of it. Maybe you would want to ask for a referral to a talk therapist?
Hang in there. We are here to help you. Keep posting.
I'm glad that you were able to feel a bit better. Keep us posted on how things are working out for you.