Yes, I can relate.
Not getting my bi-polar condition under control ruined my career. It causes some regret. On the other hand, this is the first time since my teens that I have ever known happiness.
It didn't last. I was diagnosed with cancer once the bi-polar had been relieved.
When people ask me how I am taking this so well (I do have my sad days, though) I tell them with this disease, at least I can die happy.
Happy is such a relief. Don't look back. Just enjoy the new peace you have found.
6/12 Cores Positive; Sextants were 1%, 3%, 8%, 15%, 12%, 0%
Lymph Nodes: Clear
Seminal Vesicles: Clear
Gleason: No increase from biopsy 3+4/7
Some perineural and capsule invasion.