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waterlilly8787
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Date Joined Oct 2009
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   Posted 11/1/2009 1:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello
 
Today i am goin thru one of my "down" days i dont wanna do anything i am on new meds and just feel soooo down like i dont even hardly wanna go to church  muchless get out of bed. I really need to be there for my family. Also i know this is all taking its toll on my husband and i am so proud of him for being so strong for me. And for being my rock solid  man.
I just wish i could express to him how i feel sometimes. i know he dosent fully understand, and thats ok. Just we are both young im 22 he is 24. Been married for 5 years have 2 beautiful kids ages 3 and 5.  I just want to be able to not lose it anymore i want to be able to control the money i spend and the jobs i want to be able to keep them.
 
 I just really need someone to talk to . i just feel alone right now. Very very alone.

serafena
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   Posted 11/1/2009 6:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi waterlilly,


You are not alone. I know how it feels, and this is an isolating disorder, but you have your family, and now you have us to talk to. It's okay. You don't have to do much if you don't feel like it. Just take it slow and do what you can. But you do need to get out of bed when you feel like this. You must get up and get dressed. Some days that's all you can do, and that's okay, but you have to push yourself to try and maintain a regular schedule. Get up, get dressed and take a walk. That way you can feel like you've accomplished something.

(((hugs)))
serafena
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER


waterlilly8787
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   Posted 11/6/2009 6:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Sometimes thing sjust get to a point where i feel i have no control over any of it. I got a new puppy this week. She has really brightend me up a bit!! Im doin well i guess on the lithium carbonate ....i mean i cant really tell much? but maybe thats good.

serafena
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   Posted 11/6/2009 7:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Yay! New puppy! Congrats. It's a lot of work though. What kind did you get? What's its name? Do you feel stable on the lithium or still wobbly. You may need an adjustment if you're still feeling unpredictable.

serafena
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Bipolar II

"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER


waterlilly8787
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   Posted 11/8/2009 8:22 AM (GMT -7)   
 hey sorry i was gone for a few days. I got a Long haired weenie dog she is 11 weeks old. Her name is Molly. She is  such a sweety. And yes i still feel a bit unstable  just a bit wobbly.

_Christina
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   Posted 11/8/2009 9:47 PM (GMT -7)   
i'm there too- you are not alone. sometimes i just make it out of bed, dressed, and when the kids were that age i would be laying on a blanket on the floor while the kids watch tv and crawl on me. out of bed, shower, put on clothes and open the windows. that must be done or i will simply spiral down. apart from that i keep a list, not of what i need to do, but what i have done that day. i include each step if i needed to break inbetween. "unload dishwasher, load dishwasher, water plant, make lunch, load laundry, switch laundry, fold laundry, put laundry away." see how the list looks more impressive that way?if it was hard to pull myself together to get it done-it gets listed. post the list, or keep it in a notebook so you can see all that you do for your family.
 Christina
Even though I do not understand where I am going on the path that God has laid out for me, I must submit to His plan and trust that He will take me where I need to be. 
 
Current medications:
Bipolar treatment-Lamictal, 200mg, Mood stabelizer, daily(main side effect: brain fog) Bipolar treatment-Cymbalta, 40mg, Antidepressant, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting, insominia) Anemia, Fatigue treatment- Iron supplement, 65mg, daily(main side effect: constipation) Insominia treatment- Ambien, 10mg, daily(main side effect: amnesia eppisodes between taking pill and falling asleep) Mania treatment- Alprazolam, .25mg, Very rarely(main side effect: fatigue, slowing of thoughts, depression of CNS, can't take ambien or vicodin when on it) RA treatment- Plaquenil, 400mg, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting) RA treatment- Methotrexate, 25mg, 1X weekly(main side effects: hair loss, stomach upset, mouth sores, sore muscles, fatigue, brain fog, compromised immune system, decreased Folic Acid absorption) GI upset treatment- Leucovorin Calcium, 10mg 1x weekly(main side effects: ?) Folic Acid defintioncy- Folic Acid, 1mg, daily(main side effects: ?) Multi-mineral Supplement (main side effects: constipation, GI upset) Constipation treatment- Docusate Sodium, 200mg, daily(main side effects:?) pain control- Motrin, 800mg, PRN Q6hours daily(main side effects: GI upset, decreased clotting) Pain Control- Vicodin, 5-500mg, PRN Q12hours 3-4 times weekly (main side effects: brain fog, fatigue)
 
 
 
 


Taba
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   Posted 11/9/2009 12:30 AM (GMT -7)   
Waterlilly and Christina I'm really impressed of how much you love your families. I admire both of you, and I wish that i'll have the strengh to fight once my baby is born. Its so easy right now, compared to you. Waterlilly you are a responsible person, taking your meds, bearing the side effects, Its a lot, and i hope you'll feel better soon.

I'm just pregnant, but i been there, in the downside place, remember it's temporary
a big hug

Taba

happy bill
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   Posted 11/9/2009 1:50 PM (GMT -7)   

 

    I cant tell you how much my new puppy has helped both my wife and i. BTW we got a bernese mtn dog, at 5 months he is 63 lbs. LOL LOL LOL   The puppy has done wonders for my depressions, just the sight of him brings joy to my heart, and i keep videos and pictures on my phone  so when i am feeling down i can watch them and feel good. My wife and i have both had our lives brightened in different ways. (she has her own depression problems.) 

    Hope you are feeling better and if you need to talk, just drop a post here.

    Bill

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