I feel myself losing it. I've had THE most stressful couple weeks at work. I worked 60 hours last week. I've worked 50 this week with another day left. Yesterday was 16 hours. No breaks, eating at my computer, just working. I also have my own business I run on the weekends and two toddlers. I'm so stressed and feel so inadequate. I feel like I should be able to do this work quicker. It's my first month since the girl I replaced left. I shadowed her for 3 months. She's been gone 2 weeks and I'm falling apart. I've sat here for hours just sobbing. I've had 3 migraines this week alone (normal for me is one every couple months). I laugh at things I shouldn't laugh at because I just don't know what else to do. The data is messed up, the systems are messed up (I'm a financial systems analyst), everything is late. Which obviously impacted MY job. It wasn't my fault, but it puts more pressure on me. I feel like I'm breaking under the pressure. I had a little breakdown last Friday and begged my therapist to see me, but she was booked. Our next appointment is next Wednesday. until then, how do I cope? I want to relax, but I can't. There's too much to do. I need some sleep. I need relief from the headaches. I just can't handle this anymore. And I'm so mad and disapointed in myself for not being able to handle this. I should be able to do this.
Stephanie, 29, married for 10 wonderful years and mommy to two awesome toddlers
dx with Crohn's 4/2003, in remission from 11/2003 to 7/2009
omeprazole 40mg, zoloft 100mg, apriso 1500mg, dicyclomine 3/day
dx with bipolar II 8/2009, re-diagnosed with bipolar I 9/09
Apparently allergic to lamictal...waiting on next rx