Welcome to HealingWell and the bipolar board. It is so hard to express the guilt and frustration we feel about our relationships with our loved ones sometimes. You probably need to call your doc and make sure your meds are optimized. If you're getting depressed, your meds might not be working so great. You don't say how old your kids are, but if they're adults then you can ask them to get more educated about your illness. A great book to give them or recommend is The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide by David Miklowitz. This book is really useful both for people suffering from the disorder and their families.
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER