That's okay. You don't have to apologize. We all get days like these. I know how you feel. I too try to hide when I feel that depression lurking up on me. But if we can really get it through our head that our support network is there for us, things would be a lot better.
I feel terrible when I have to say to my hubby or kids or friend that, "I've just feel the depression coming upon me so hard lately." I think I am going to have to start explaining things, but no....they wrap their arms around me and say things like...."lets go out for a walk, let's do something cool, or let's just hang-out together." Makes it sounds as easy as pie, right? But it always does help when I do vent about it.
It's good that you mentioned it to your doctor. That's what they are there for and the sooner we notify them, they can help us nip it in the bud! I always feel like Barney Fife from Andy Griffith when I say that, "Nip it in the bud I tell you, Nip It In The Bud"!...LOL
Good for you for taking good care of yourself. I think you made a wonderful decision to go out for Thanksgiving Dinner. It shows your trying to be pro active with handling your depression instead of just sitting at home and are compassionate about others too. Everyone will have a wonderful time knowing that you are out and about with them.
Have a Blessed Holiday!
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Crohns disease - 1995
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