I totally appreciate what you are saying! I think Sukay has it right though -- your best bet is to loosen your need for a strict definition of your diagnosis and focus on the symptoms -- since that's what the docs are treating anyway. Abilify doesn't know your diagnosis -- it only acts upon your brain in a certain way. If that's useful to you, great. If not, you (unfortunately) have to keep trying until you find meds that do work.
In the past year I too have been rediagnosed a couple of times and don't know what to believe anymore. I have been involved in a complicated search for a new psych as mine moved out of the area. Unfortunately, in the middle of this transition, I had a severe episode and was hospitalized. I've seen 6 different psychs this year. Each one diagnosed me slightly differently. Currently, I am going back and forth between two: one who says I don't have bipolar at all but clinical depression "with some personality disorders" (whatever that means) or the other who says I'm bipolar alright but also have ADD. Huh? I've never heard that one before and I'm 37. You think we'd have hit on that by now. The medication is different for each, but trying them doesn't hurt. If it works, great. (By the way, my current meds are not working well and I don't think I have ADD.)
Incidentally, I don't think the psychs are witch doctors because they can't agree. I think it just goes to show how complex and complicated the field is. The brain resists fitting in little boxes. For every one person with textbook Bipolar I, there are 10 with more "interesting" variations.
That's us. Interesting.
I'll keep my eyes
open for any resources about
bipolar and borderline dxs together.
SerafenaCo-Moderator, Bipolar ForumBipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER