I'm sorry guys! I've been lurking and not saying much. I've been rapid cycling for a while now. My pdoc says it is just a stressful time for me and I should just pop a xanax to take the edge off when I need to. I'll admit I haven't been doing that. It makes me sleepy and during the day, things just need to get done.
My therapist is in agreement with my pdoc. She knows it has been a very stressful time for me and I'm seeing her weekly still!
I do great all alone during the day. Somedays I have so much energy and get so much done but just keep going like the little energizer bunny. Plus I don't need much sleep at all. (I know, I know, & my doctors here this)
Other days I am very compulsive with cleaning house or going from one thing to another. For instance, I will wipe down the counter, then clean the counter and then notice a spot on the cabinet and clean all of them and then open one and start to wipe that down and then start to reorganize all of them, then notice something on the floor and vacuum everthing then wash the floors, etc., etc. Then later I could cry about something that is making me so sad. Or I could be so irritable and bite someone's head off!
Right now is break time from all the house chores and I'm feeling really emotional and sad. Guess I just had to tell someone who gets it.
My poor husband, he comes home tired and frustrated from work and the last thing I need is to hear how crappy his day was and the last thing he needs is to see me being Bi*#@. If he puts something where it doesn't belong I'm naggin! Everything irritates me when someone steps into my world right now. I'm best all alone and enjoy myself best when I am alone except for the sad times like right now where I just want to cry like a baby!!!
My hubby doesn't like me on the xanax. He said I don't interact with anyone (I guess that's the point right now :o) Or he says that I just use it as a cop out to not deal with things. I'm only doing what the pdoc and therapist are telling me to do!!!!!
I haven't been this messed up in a long time! But the pdoc and therapist think I can pull myself together without a med change.
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Crohns disease - 1995
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