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Angela40045
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   Posted 1/11/2010 4:15 PM (GMT -7)   

- stolen dreams - 

as i closed my weary eyes
i felt the fear inside of me
there seems no way to fight it
wasted time is all it seems

as you rob me of my thoughts
cloud my mind with memories
i see you standing in the distance
holding my stolen dreams


 
 

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serafena
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   Posted 1/11/2010 7:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Beautiful and painful. Thanks for sharing this. It's very well done.

serafena
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER


Angela40045
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Date Joined Dec 2009
Total Posts : 24
   Posted 1/11/2010 8:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Serafena,
I can't stop crying. I am so scared right now. I started out so happy today, but now all I want to do is cry, pack up all my stuff and runaway. I just can't put my family through this anymore. What is wrong with me? God Help Please.
 
 

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mommy.michele
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   Posted 1/11/2010 8:28 PM (GMT -7)   
Angela...it sounds like you are really going through a bad time with depression right now. You really need to get in to your doctor and maybe see if your meds need adjusting. Times like this is when you really need to stay on top of your health. You know you are not right and need to make yourself get the help you need.

This poem spoke volumes and reminds me of my real low points. Try to remember that living with Bipolar really sucks and sometimes we need to try some new med combos to get regulated again.

Your family does not want you to leave. They want a healthy happy you there...and you need to get your doctors help to get there. Also...do you see a therapist? Therapy helps immensely just surviving this disorder.
Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet? - L. M. Montgomery


serafena
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   Posted 1/11/2010 9:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Angela,

Mommy.michele is totally right. Your family wants and needs you. You aren't broken or flawed, you are just you. Everyone struggles, we just struggle with bipolar. It's going to be alright. Truly.

Try and get some sleep tonight and in the morning call your psych and tell the receptionist you need to see or speak with your doc urgently. Let them know how awful you're feeling, and hopefully you can get a jump on this.

Take care of yourself. You'll be okay.

serafena
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Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II

"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER


Angela40045
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Total Posts : 24
   Posted 1/14/2010 7:15 PM (GMT -7)   
I can say this, Today is a better day. I am happy. and I hope to stay happy for as long as possible. I hate the lows that make me feel so awful.
 
 

Come see my YouTube Channel on my struggles with Bipolar: http://www.youtube.com/user/SmellingDaisies
 
Read my Personal Diary on Bipolar: http://sites.google.com/site/angelaledckeandbipolar/
 
 

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