Mommy.michele is totally right. Your family wants and needs you. You aren't broken or flawed, you are just you. Everyone struggles, we just struggle with bipolar. It's going to be alright. Truly.
Try and get some sleep tonight and in the morning call your psych and tell the receptionist you need to see or speak with your doc urgently. Let them know how awful you're feeling, and hopefully you can get a jump on this.
Take care of yourself. You'll be okay.
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER