I fully understand missing the hypomanic states, and i to have reduced (Not quit) my meds to try and get a happy balance between good mania and bad decision making. (my problems with bipolar have led me to bad decisions in sexual areas) So about 8 weeks ago i started reducing my respridone from a full tablet to half a tablet. Than i sat back and waited to see what would happen. I had one major mania which i broke by upping my doseage back to one tablet until it had passed.
I now experience more hypo mania and am enjoying a much more vibrant sex life that is fully in control. I have no desire to wander and if i ever start to feel out of control i go back to one tablet for a few days to ride it out.
Trust me i know what you are feeling, have you thought about just reducing your meds for a while instead of going completely off the meds? I feel like i am getting the best of both worlds, i get all the fun of being bipolar and all the safety of being normal. LOL LOL LOL
I went off meds about 6 months after being dx'd. I was off for an entire year. I weaned off with the (reluctant) support of my pdoc. At first I felt great, for a few months. Then I relapsed into a major depressive episode that I didn't seek treatment for right away. Since being back on meds for the last few years, lately I am frustrated beyond all imagination. I have tried everything and the thought has crossed my mind to go off again since nothing is working. But I'm not going to do that because it is inevitable that relapse will occur.
I've only had one "high, hypomanic" period since September. The rest of that time I've been in varying degrees of depression every single day. While I see your point about feeling the hypomania, getting so much done, feeling sooooo much better then being depressed, that's not necessarily the goal....it's to be stable, have that important balance.
I wish you luck. I don't know how many meds you have tried or combos of each of them, but it's your decision and it's good you have the professional support.
Hey there, glad to hear things went well. Thats great you have a therapy dog, you will have to post his/her picture soon so we can see what he/she looks like. LOL LOL Keep up the good work and keep us informed.