Still not well. But I am writing my accomplishments to you all so I can focus on continuing on fighting this depression.
This week has not gone well at work. I was in an extremely stressful situation Monday that really angered me Monday and it leaked over into Tuesday. My anger was gone Wednesday (I did a lot of venting). Yesterday was rough. My job is even slower than it already was--one of my three psychiatrists that I work for has gone on maternity leave, so now I am down to two and one of those is only here two days a week. So, that means a lot of downtime and boredem. Yesterday I really felt the walls of my office closing in on me, so although anxiety provoking, I forced myself to go have lunch with one of the teams (about 8 ppl) downstairs. The team is consisted of nurses, and psychologists, along with another secretary and a clerk. So I did that, YAY for me! Then I went for a break with the secretary and clerk in the afteroon and killed a half hour of time there.
The other night I called a friend and reached out to her to come over for some tea, it didn't end up happening but I get points for trying. Last week I did meet up with another friend who lives down the street from me and she allowed me to really let it all out, so I will be calling her again soon.
Today I have been working on CBT all morning. Mainly I am just reading and writing right now. This afternoon I am going to try to actually do some of the exercises...Actually make that one exercise this afternoon, baby steps are needed right now.
Tyring NOT to focus on how the meds aren't working for me right now and just keep on taking them and not missing any doses.
Anyway, there it is. It does make me feel better to know I am trying, although I don't feel like I am. I feel like I'm just lying there "taking it". But, like I said, I am in fact trying....Focus focus focus. Thanks for reading.