Hi - I'm New...learning -- been diagnosed for over 3 years..

New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

New Member

Date Joined Jan 2010
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 1/31/2010 10:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello all,
I'm Lisa.. I have been reading all your threads with great interest. I become more and more interested as I can relate.
I was diagnosed with bi-polar about 3 years ago. I had been on depression medication off and on for almost 20 years with no real benefit... I was being prescribed them from my primary.. I think I took every ssri on the market. confused
Well, a couple years went by and I had not been on any depression meds.. But for the first time ever I was having crazy fits of rage, I would get so mad. I do not mean just everyday hey' I'm mad.. I mean I could have really hurt someone... and almost did in a grocery store parking lot - that was the final straw....I was so angry I was giving myself heart palpitations.  That next day I made an appt and went to a pshychiatrist. He met me, we talked for about 15 min he told me I had "borderline bi-polar" he gave me a lamictal step packet and sent me on my way.. I took it saw him every 3 months for 5 minutes -- my dose ended up at 150 mg. I no longer had crazy fits of rage, no longer wanted to drive my min-van into a pole or run far-far away... I did not tell my DH I was taking any meds as I did not want to be pre-judged.. when I did mention it was after he mentioned noticing a difference in my behavior.
Well, over time I changed insurance, jobs and was having marital problems (mainly over money and finances) I sought a psychologist for a few months.. it helped to talk to someone.. ( I do not have any family)
Well, I still felt off balance and still not sleeping. I have been a chronic insomniac since I was 10... my primary asked me to please take Prozac - I agreed and now I'm at 40 mg. Also, take Ambien at night and have klonopin for anxiety..
so... for such a long time I have been wondering... what is mania? what does it feel like? How about the lows? Do I really have bi-polar? How do you know?? Do I get mania, is that why I am so hyper sometimes?
and lastly... I lost my job last March I no longer have insurance and cannot afford the lamictal (generic). I currently take Prozac 40mg, Topamax 50mg (and going up - this is new this week for migraines), Ambien, and Klonopin... I also was put in Phentermine (an amphetamine for weight loss) and actually I feel better than I have in months... just worried about stopping the Lamictal cold turkey..
Sorry to ramble.. I just have so many questions..thank you so much for reading and listening... it's nice having someone to talk too... I would truly appreciate any input!! smile 
Thank you 

Veteran Member

Date Joined Jan 2010
Total Posts : 2896
   Posted 2/1/2010 6:31 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello - welcome! :)

Veteran Member

Date Joined May 2007
Total Posts : 3715
   Posted 2/2/2010 7:36 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Smiling Energy,

Welcome to HealingWell and the bipolar board.

I would definitely not stop taking the Lamictal cold turkey. And you should know that anti-depressants such as Prozac can make bipolar patients manic if taken without a mood stabilizer such as Lamictal. I would talk to your doc.

Also, many major pharmacies have $4 generic drugs if you sign up for their programs. Talk to your pharmacist.

Good luck!
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II

"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER

New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Friday, June 23, 2017 7:59 PM (GMT -6)
There are a total of 2,829,972 posts in 310,620 threads.
View Active Threads

Who's Online
This forum has 152729 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, teddy77.
408 Guest(s), 16 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
Kev9412, 19tarpon47, ohbehave, sheepguy, AdrienneA, Lyme_CJ, mattamx, DianeB, ppm guy, Girlie, Bstrong, searchinginla, Supportive Daughter, sunny40, Tall Allen, Aerosnow7

Follow HealingWell.com on Facebook  Follow HealingWell.com on Twitter  Follow HealingWell.com on Pinterest

©1996-2017 HealingWell.com LLC  All rights reserved.

Advertise | Privacy Policy & Disclaimer