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Deacon Blues
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Date Joined Oct 2006
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   Posted 2/2/2010 6:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi,
I am wondering if anyone else has been through this:
having never seen a therapist, knowing that something is wrong, depression landing on you all of a sudden with no identifiable cause, then getting better and thinking "I am OK, I don't need a therapist, I just need to hang in there..." Wired or tired..., anxiety can be intense, can wake right out of bed ticked off and wore out...and so on. The darkness is so addicting and yet so evil!! I find myself loving it and wallowing in it and hating it all at the same time...at these times I listen to melancholy music and I love it, but then shouldn't listen to it because it feeds the hunger for the darkness...it is a vicious cycle...there is a defining shift between my moods or mental seasons...I work night shift and this really does not do anything good for my moodiness or whatever is going on. AM I bi-polar? I really do not know. My kids say so as I can go from loving to flippin irritated instantly. Just 2 days ago at work I remember vividly how all of a sudden I was depressed with no identifiable cause. Just BAMM!!! right out of nowhere...what is going on. I have started wiriting my thoughts down along with peotry of how I am doing or how I feel...it ain't pretty. I am wondering however I if I may be writing some of the stuff just to amuse myself...I just don't know...Any of this sound like bi-polar? (sigh)...dB
Diagnosed with UC in Dec of 1999
Some left sided scarring from previous disease process
3 Asacol twice daily
Mild flares a couple times a year
45 yrs old
I HATE UC!


red lightening
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Date Joined Jan 2009
Total Posts : 620
   Posted 2/2/2010 8:43 AM (GMT -7)   
Only a Psychiatrist can properly diagnose you with Bipolar. From
my experience; it sounds like you have many of the symptoms.
However, I'm not a doctor!

sukay
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Date Joined Feb 2003
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   Posted 2/3/2010 12:20 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Deacon Blues,

If these problems are happening regularly, you should get checked out by a psychiatrist and let him decided. 

Is life very stressful for you right now?  Stress can do a lot of funny things to our minds and bodies.

Keep a journal of your feelings and thoughts.  Bring it with you for your appointment so that you can give really good examples of what is going on with you.

I know from experience that I say, "Oh I'll remember to mention that" only to get there and not remember a thing!

Wishing you wellness! blush


~sukay~
Anxiety/Panic  
Bipolar - 2004
     Crohns disease - 1995 
Arthritis & Fibromyalgia 
 
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Deacon Blues
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Date Joined Oct 2006
Total Posts : 272
   Posted 2/3/2010 10:50 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the reply...yeah I have a lot of stress...I am in nursing school, raising two young men, play in a band, work at the hospital on night shift 3 -12 hour shifts per week, night shift is very difficult for me physically and mentally...I have started a journal. I have kept a journal over the years but have thrown them out. It started out as a running journal, then a religious experience journal, now just a place where I can vent and write dark poetry or not so dark poetry. I would like to get in to see a psychiatrist. I seen a psychologist for one visit about 2 months ago after I lost my Father. I thought it was a good excuse to get into counseling through out employee assistance program. Anyway, the one visit didn't seem to lure me back...need to do something...how do I get the name of a good psychiatrist in my area?? dB
Diagnosed with UC in Dec of 1999
Some left sided scarring from previous disease process
3 Asacol twice daily
Mild flares a couple times a year
45 yrs old
I HATE UC!


Christine777
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Date Joined Feb 2010
Total Posts : 72
   Posted 2/12/2010 5:43 PM (GMT -7)   
One little suggestion for you, from my own experience. Stop listening to sad music, I did that and it made me feel awful.
Try to find music that brings you up and concentrate on that if you can. It sounds like you need to seek a doctor too.
Get help there is no shame in that.
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