Hello my name is Heather I am 26 yrs old and I have bipolar.
I have had bipolar for 10 years now and this is my lowst point.
I have a boyfriend of 6 years!
I decided to go back to school b-c I was sick of staying home. More then that is I wanted to feel like I could do something "GOOD" in my life. Well I signed up for 4 classes and found 2 of them to be to hard for me (I am LD). I have found that I have become so depressed I dont want to leave my house! There are so many issues I am dealing with ontop of feeling dumb I gained 75lbs and now am fat. I feel ugly and useless. Jason and I just moved from my dads house into out own and I am finding we dont have enough money to stay here so I am worried on where we will go. Not only that my mom died in 06 and my dad is now lossing the house so I am worried for my family. The only thing I have dreamed of since I was little was having a family and great husband. I miscarried at 5months and I am so sad about that too. I just feel my life is falling down and I cant pick myself up. Im sorry to go on and on but no one is listening to me in my life that I felt that I needed to come on here and maybe someone will be nice to talk to me. I dont know why I dont have anything to offer. IM REALLY SAD/ I dont want to leave my house and all I want to do is sleep. Macomb county really sucks I cant even see a doctor to help me... :( Thanks for reading.