You know the whole behind thing used to really really drive me crazy also. Once i got on my meds it somehow allowed me the peace of mind to take a step back and priortize my life. What i found was that most of it is small stuff that we overblow in our minds to huge proportions. I concentrate on things like work (have to pay the bills) Small things like a good book, excersising on the bike, and keepiing the house clean. Now when i say clean i do not mean better homes and gardens clean, i mean dishes don, trash out, and kitty litter cleaned. Clutter is clutter and i will clean it when i get the time and not worry about it otherwise.
Aside from that i work very very hard on being a good husband (hard as my wife has very bad depression issues that she refuses to get treated) A good dad to my step son (hard because i'm not his real dad, even though ive raised him 12 of 19 years) and a good daddy to my puppy and the kitties. (easy, i love them all so much)
Certain things will always be hard, however a life without challenges is a dull and boring. Try your best to take a step back and think, what to i want to be remembered for when i die. Am a person who kept a super clean house and paid every bill on time? Or am i a person who helped out his neighbors, loved well, and treated all others as best as i could? But what the heym there is no one saying you cant be both. LOL LOL LOL
Good luck and keep posting, we are all here to talk and offer support.