I just found out that the 28 years I was diagnosed bi-polar, my husband thought I was faking my symptoms. Two years ago he decided it was for real. Now I am a rapid cycler, have been hospitalized several times, had major depressivesive episodes....to say the least it has been hectic and traumatizing. I just can't get past the fact that he thought I was a "faker"...like what does that say of his opinion of me. I am terribly hurt. One side of things, is now I understand some of his behavior when I was supposedly "faking" it. Twice he made me drive myself to the emergency room alone when I was toxic on tegretal and then later lithium. I was in no condition to drive. Then he threw a fit at the hospital, demanding I be released (even tho, I was on suicide watch). The hospital finally released me in his custody with him signing a paper that he would waTCH ME AND NOT LEAVE ME ALONE FOR 24 HOURS. well, he drove me home, dropped me off in the driveway, drove away and left me alone for 24 hours. The list just goes on and on. At the time I thought I was so "bad" that I deserved this treatment. And apparently with him thinking I was "faking", he thought I was bad. I am absolutely blown away that for that long nad for how much I struggled, he could think I was faking it. His opinion of me must have been horrible. Now that he believes I am bi-polar, he is supportive. He says I have to let go of the past.....but right now I am too angry and hurt. How the heck could he think and act like I was faking it for 26 years???? I need to understand how this happened and how he could be so cruel for all those years. I am very confused.