Hi it has been awhile since I have been on. I was on all summer and then went back to work feeling great. I went back in and was happy to be back I had my Friends and coworkers that I love to be around I got a new desk and was feeling good about being back. The draw back was I did not remember exactly how to do my job. I had forgotten alot and let my super be aware of this. I was offered no help untill I was written up for not preforming my job incorrectly. I would not sighn the w/up I was so mad to say it politely!!! Then my son got sick several times and I had to call in my husband and I take turns he stays home with him one day and I stay home with him the next. When I called in the first time my super HUNG UP ON ME! I was in the middle of telling her I would let her know if he was not better by the afternoon I would call her and she just hung up realy loud in my ear. Recently we had a snow storm and I am not risking life and or limb to go into work. So I called in and again she hung up on me. There are other things she has done like try to through me under the bus with her boss. OH I am so stressed. I tell my husband and he keeps saying I would tell you to quite but you would so I am not saying it.
Then my husbands job is moving 50 miles away I think we should move and he said we shouldn't because my dad used to drive that far. My dad was in a near faital car accident and he made almost $20 more an hour than my husband. I know he knows it would be a whiile to sell our house but we can sell it and untill then he will have to drive.
My tharapist has cancled my appointments 5 out of the last 6 times!!! She may be having a family emergency but can she at least let us know more than the day of cancl? Or refer us to someone else untill she comes back to work!!!
Then my son at 9 years old tells me he wants to starve himself to death because he feels like his bio dad dosen't love him. The man mostlikely dosent because all he cares about is himself. He has three kids and he lives with one and then he picks my son up every other weekend like clock work and he has abandon his daughter. From what my son says his dad gets up gets dressed and is in the bathroom doing his hair for an hour or so then take a nap and tells my son to watch the baby because he stayed out late and cant stay awake. There is much more to this story than that but I have already written alot and have more to go.
Now on to my pdr I have been telling him these things and he acts like I am nuts because of all the meds I am on. I want to tell him obvously they are not right for me or these things would not be happening. I have broken out with acne I have a rash on my chest and the most embarrising thing of all is that I want sex all the time. I mean all the time my husband is tired of me constantly asking him for it. Wich in its self is bad on my end he has never told me to quit. I have an Appt with the pdr today and since I have been off work for 4 days I am hoping he sees that I can not do this right now I feel right now like it will never be ok to have a job because I can not deal with the stress of work and home I am terrified of what that means.
Please can anyone help me!!!!!