I intended to post sooner, but right after my appt (which finally went well!) I came back to my job at the hospital only to find out that I may end up losing my job here b/c of cuts. I have been very anxious and scared and low since, so ...I couldn't bring myself to even think about anything else.
Now, I am trying to cope. I won't find out about my job until next week (maybe). This is not helping my depression at all, but I don't have to tell all of you that....you understand.
The appointment was great. First good one since September. I begged for the antidepressant and he agreed, but it is only temporary, but I am looking forward to feeling better. Five months is long enough. He let me pick which one and I had been on Wellbutrin before many years ago when I was dx'd with clinical depression. SLZ, your post was extremely helpful (as was everyone else's, thank you!).....I knew before I went in that I needed to make an honest deal with pdoc that if I start to feel high or cycle that I would tell him right away, and at that point we'd have to look at other options. I am starting at 75mg...for one week and then going to 150mg. What dose are you on SLZ, if you don't mind me asking...?
I hope and pray that this works and I can stay on it at least until the summer...
Thank you all for the support. I really need you guys through this; you're the biggest support for me.
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 8mg/day, Mirapex 1.5 mg/day & Lamictal 400 mg/day.