NEW = SCARY. Cant get aound that little bug-a-boo. At 42 i have to force myself to go try and do new things. And yes, after ive done them i allways feel so much better. Even if the food wasnt that good, i get a little high over just gettign over my fear of new.
about a year ago i took a new parttime job at sears doing loss prevention. Basicly catching shoplifters. Well my first month there i HATED it. I was and still am a non comfrontational person, looking instead for ways to calmly solve my problems. Being a person who goes up to complete strangers, young, old, black, white, male, female and arresting them was so completely alien to me. It felt wrong wrong wrong. My wife said to quit several times but our need of money kept me there.
And guess what, i discovered that i was not only really good at the job, but that the job suited me perfectly. I became a little more assertive, and i became one of the top people in sears at catching bad guys. My boss told me that in sears i was top 15 of the part time loss prevention dectivitives.
So yes it can be scary, very veyr scary. But there are rewards there also. THink about it this way. If you dont go to this job you have 0% chance of finding a happy place where your work will be valued. If you go, give it a chance, and end up not liking it, you still have won because you tried.
Good luck Bill
Keep us posted.