Hey everyone, just had something i was thinking about
and wanted to run by you all to see if i am completely off base or not that crazy.
As most of you know here i suffer mostly from hyomania and severe sexual urges. I dont have any issuses with spending, drugs, alchol, gambling, anxiety or anything else. Now when i went on my bipolar meds i started to have severe depression. My Pdoc felt that my constant state of hypomania, 4-6 days a week on average, had masked my depression from giving me any problems. It was the sexual urges that gave me all the problems in life, i just wanted sex morning noon and night, and twice on wed.
Not only sex ingeneral but a variety of sexual exeriences, the more varied the better.
So that in a nut shell is what got me here and diagnosed with bipolar, i had a series of affairs that my wife found out about
. She was so emotional she almost killed my with a knife to the throat. (What it takes to finally get a stupid man to the doctors
So i was thinking, why not treat the sexual problem that was causing me issues. I've been on antidepresants and yep, they completely kill the sex urge in me. At one point i almost couldnt "function" as a man i was so medicated. However if thats what i have to do to be a good husband im willing to make the sacrifice as long as i can keep my hypomanias. Instead of treating the biolar why not try and kill the other problem, the sexual problem.
Im kinda interested in this for several reasons. One i understand the longer i am on the same meds there is a chance they wont work for me as well. And instead of doping myself crazy on higher and higher levels of medicine, what about
instead killing the urge to merge. so to speak.
Thanks for listening. I'm a long term planner type person and i always like to have as many plans in place for as much as i can prepare for. I know i was a bit personnel with this post but youall here can understand me better than most any other people would. I know bipolar affects us all differently, this is just an honest assessment of how it affects me in my life