Hi there and welcome. What you are describing sounds like classic bipolar symptons, but only a qualifed PDoc could tell you for sure. One things for certain, you cant be afraid to ask for help. The worst thing that could happen is that you are bipolar, however you allready suspect it so it wont come as a shock. I for one was relieved when i was diagnosed, it explained so much and once i got help in the form of one pill a day i now lead a normal life.
The truth can be scary, but i would rather know the truth and know who to fight than to hope it isnt and continue to make wrong descisions. I was originally diagnosed ADD a few years before and the ridilin almost caused me to have a psychoic break because it reved up my allready reved up body.
Please go see a doc and get the right diagnosis. We are here if you find out its true and we are a nice group of very supportive people who actually know the ins and outs of living with this beastie.
Hope this helps. Bill
I know this is tough for you to bring this up but take strenght from the fact this isnt a death sentence. You might have to live with some meds the rest of your life but that is much preferable to making the miriad of mistakes we all have made. If we can help you avoid, shoplifting, booze, drugs, sexual misconduct, and spend issues to name a few than it is well worth the time to do it.
This wont be easy but it is encouraging to see that you are taking the bull by the horns and addressing the issue straight up. How yoru family reacts is anybodys guess but you have to give them a chance to not only hear the idea, but to get used to the idea also.
Good luck and we are here to help, no matter what they say.
Hey there, anger for me comes when i am hypomanic and tired. Its a very very bad combo for me because i can lose my normally mellow demenor and completely lose it. I have from time to time letely taken one of my wifes zanex to help calm me down. I have to take about one a month, sometimes a whole month and a half between useage.
Normally hypomanias are very good to me, but anger, cheating, dark thoughts signal a slip into true mania. Than i hit up my meds for an extra pill for a couple of days and that normally brings me right back to control.
Keep up the good work, i dont know if i would have had your strenght to face this at your age. Its been hard enough finding this out at age 39. But really you need to get to a doc sooner than later. This desease is a very very sneaky little bugger and it can have you completely out of control before you know it.
Just be carefull with this beast little one, it has many differnt faces and can strike very very fast.