Yea, sorry i wasnt on to give you some support. I was working a 24 and a 16 and trying so darn hard to keep out of trouble (yes i was successful but just barely) .
The way i have expalined to people like my wife (who isnt bipolar) is this way. She can tell me many different ways what its like to give birth, and i can read tons of literature on the subject but at the end of the day i would only have the most basic "understanding" of what its like to give birth. Thats the way i try to describe being bipolar, "normal" people just cant understand what we go thru. If they had to live one day in our shoes it would probally put them in the hospital because we are used to it, they arnt.
Hope you are feelign better. Keep posting we are normally much more on the ball than this.