Last week I was hypomanic and now I am so depressed. I see my t tomorrow and hope that I will feel better. Just wanted to write because I am so down. I even went for a 3 mile walk today and still feel down.
Some of the reason is because I lost my job, I recieved a call today from an employer but during the phone interview she kept stressing how this is a demanding very stressfull job. So I will be skipping that interview!
Then my sons dr told me over 2 months ago that he was contacting the rep for my sons ADHD meds that my ins would not cover after the 1st of this year. I called today to get refills because my son has one week left and guess what???? You got it he has no samples and his nurse is trying to tell me that the rep did not leave any. Well my response to that is then why did the dr even see ther rep if he is not leaving samples? The dr is the one who assured me that the samples would be there untill the end of the school year! Then we could try to get him on something different. Now he wants me to come back in and see him so he can decide what to put him on and something that the ins will pay for. He can't do that without seeing my son again????? What is he going to do a visual brain scan to see what med might work? He is just looking for money thats what it is. He can look at the ins formulary and decide what drug is right for him. He dosen't even write rx anymore he faxes them to the pharm with his little palm pilot or what ever that thing is he carries around. Oh I am so MAD!!!!!!!!!
I am also worried about money now that I do not have a job and mostlikely will not get unemployment because, I was fired. Right now I don't want a job I don't want the stress but what can I do??? I am going to volenteer at my sons school and at the Historical Museum in town. I need money though and I will obsess over it.
Do you think that I should have scheduled an interview with the demanding job or hold out for something that is easier and that I will not be driven over the edge from? Is it just me or does anyone else feel like the world is working aginst them not with them???? I am on a rollercoaster and I want off the ride because it is making me sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!