Just when I find a combo that works for me the doctor insists I can't stay on the combo.
I've been taking 2.5mg abilify, 50mg seroquel XR, and 75mg topamax 2xdaily, but now the doctor says I can have either the abilify or the seroquel, because the risk of side effects from them is too great to be on both at the same time.
When I was on the seroquel by itself I was tired all the time, and unable to drive or get anything done around the house, plus I was noticing a tendency to curl my hands into tight balls all the time that the Pdoc said could be tardive dyskinesia, which started to go away as we decreased the dosage.
Being on the abilify by itself caused me to spin into a hypomanic state though (at 5mgs), along with the feelings of agitations and restlessness which we combated with klonopin (which I don't want to rely on because I know it's addictive)
because of the problems I've been having with the seroquel, it looks liek trying to abilify again by itself is my only option, but if this doesn't work, my only option is to try different meds.
The doc says, due to my history of side effects from various meds, my options are pretty slim. She feels my options at this point are limited to Lithium which scares the living daylights out of me. It's perhaps the one bipolar med I've never been on before, because I've always refused it. I've heard so many horror stories about people being on it, and have had a few friends over the years who were on it and heard them complain about it so much.
My husband is being so supportive, and last night talking to him he stated that right now I'm more stable then I've been in the last year, so changing things now seems like I'm letting him down, but I understand the doctors reasoning, and I do agree. Just feeling a bit devestated that after so many years of trying so many combinations of medicines, when I find one that works, I'm told I can't have it for longer then a few weeks to balance me out.