So talking about everything I've been going through has helped me a lot. Specifically I talk about everything with you guys and my mom. I have a friend of similiar intellectual caliber that I had a great discussion with last night about it. I have another friend who has been dealing with psych problems since coming home from Iraq and I have talked to him more about the medication side. I sat down with my boss, who is a good friend, and one co-worker I close the store with most and let them know about my doctors appointment and that I am going through some big changes and might need a little space/patience on their part.
So far it has been painless, but all of these people are cloes and relate well to me. Thy know me well enough to see that I do need help and they want the best for me. There has of course been a little spill over, overheard conversations, prodding roommates, people I didn't really want to deal with it with. The biggest reaction from them is more along the lines of skepticism. They are misinformed and have skewed ideas about the disorder and what exactly it is or is not.
To complicate things, I have been having a little romance the last month for the first time in a long time, and I am reluctant to bring it up with her. We were talking about our families on our first date and share a pretty common family history and both admitted we had some screwy head problems, lol. I mentioned that I had been thinking about going to the doctor because I have a family history of depression and bipolar, she encouraged it but freaked out about bipolar. She said something to the effect of "I can see you being depressed, but not bipolar. Just don't say that, I don't want to think about it." I'm fairly certain she has had bad experiences with out of control bipolar relatives, and I'm really reluctant to talk to her about it. She knows I went to the doctor, knows I started meds, but we haven't talked about it. (It's a bit of a distance thing, and we only actually hang out every couple weeks. I want to have this conversation in person).
Anyways, any help would be much appreciated :)