Post Edited (AK93) : 3/20/2010 12:51:08 PM (GMT-6)
Hi there, welcome. For me it was the same when i was diagnosed, it just FELT completely right. It actually felt like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. Everything you describe does seem to be BP, especially the rapid cycling.
Life does get better with treatment and meds. Thankfully you are still young and havnt had a chance to do the damage to your life and body us old coots have. Trust me you havnt seen messed up until you see what some of us have done before we knew what was wrong. LOL LOL LOL
I'm glad you are seeking treatment. Hope you get help and keep posting here, lots of insights here about what to do and what not to do. LOLLLOL
Post Edited (AK93) : 3/21/2010 10:45:08 AM (GMT-6)
AK93, Understand that you can live with hypomanias if you can keep the worse of the syptoms under control. I still have daily hypomanic episodes and enjoy them greatly. However i now have control over my "issues" that led me to getting diagnosed in the first place. Sometimes i get to high, so i have to take some extra meds to bring me down.
It tokk me about a year of living with my present medication level to realize i felt blah, no drive, no joy, no nothing. In short i was not Happy Bill of story and song. So about 4 months ago i reduced my meds by half, and have regained a lot of the good effects of BP, hypomania, and a much watered down hypersexuality. It took awhile to get to this point, it didnt happen over night, but i now mostly have complete control over this beastie. Now i did say MOSTLY, the reason i put that bold is that some days it isnt in complete control so i need to identify that and take a full dose of my meds to get back on top of the beastie.
I am living on the edge of control and out of control behavior. This balancing act takes a lot of work and time and effort to keep me safe and may not be for you. However with time and effort i have made it work for me so i can enjoy my life and not feel so spaced out.
Well i'm one of those with BP who doesnt take anti depresents. I take something called Respridone which helps take away the bad parts of mania. From time to time i do take soem celexa but as a sexual depresant, not an anti depresant.
Yep, you get so many great ideas but you cant get them out, kinda like you get locked up in your mind and cant make any progress. Boy does that suck big time. LOL LOL My meds take that away so i can make some headway with my life. Manias can be just as destructive and bad as severe depressions.
They tried me on abilify first to see if i responded to it. I did and it helped a bit. It was only when i went on the respridone that i finally felt and achieved peace in my life.
Yep, sounds like me. I have never been caught, now that i am medicated i have actually used what i learn to steal into catching shoplifters. I catch people no one else even looks at. LOL LOL
Tainted great post. Wow, i am completely and totally screwed up. LOL LOL They could just put my picture next to that Mania quote and it would be me in a nutshell.
Heck, why do you think my jobs have a dangerous outlook to them, Bomb Disposel, Firefighter, and now Loss Prevention. For what ever reason i am drawn to jobs or behaviors that others consider risky.
For what ever reason drug and alchol never had any interest for me. Weird.