You know i went thru that phase also, about being anxious about being medicated the rest of my life. It was really bugging me for a while. But eventually i grew to accept the idea that this is my life and it is all how i make it. So if the meds allow me to be close to "normal" and if they allow me to be a good husband, father, and friend, then darn the side effects.
The thing our loved ones will never understand is what we endure to be "normal" for them. They wont understand the hair loss, the weight gain, the lack of interest in sex, the anxiety, none of that. WE just have to suffer in silence and pay for the pleasure of being normal. lOL LOL
Yea, it sucks, but when i think of the alternative (which is the look on my wifes face when she found out about all the affaris i had been having) than crappy side effects seem a small price to pay.