Man tonight was crazy. I was kept up by drinking roommates a long time, then it ended in a fight between my little brother and our longtime friend and roommate. My roommates only brother did the unthinkable less than a year ago, and my roommate has yet to seek therapy for the trauma he experienced. I am certain he has ptsd. I also see many signs of bipolar in my brother (that would make three brothers out of four, bla) and it tore me up to see my little brother in a rage.
I had to run in and break up the fight, no punches were thrown but it was close. It was very trying for me, with all this going on, to have to step in between the physical confrontation of two people I love.
My roommate went to his room after destroying our wall. He told me not to come into his room, but I was very worried so I went in anyways and talked to him. I've been very worried about him lately, namely because I see him suffering and I know he has a few guns that he inherited from his younger brother in his room. After talking through this evenings drama I told him I was worried about him and that it made me nervous that he had guns in his room. He opened up and told me he unloaded the guns the other night because he was afraid he might get drunk and pull the trigger.
I told him that I had gotten rid of my guns a while back because I knew that in the wrong state of mind I could do something I wouldn't live to regret. I then told him I didn't like the idea of him having guns around, especially ones that were tied to his brother, and asked if I could keep all of his ammo in a safe place in my room. He very quickly agreed. It took a few minutes but I think I managed to get all of the ammo, he kept coming up with more from random places. He was very happy, and I think I opened up a critical line of communication with him, and possibly even convinced him to accept his parents offer of paying for counseling.
Man, it was a crazy night, but this is possibly the first time that I was able to use my situation to literally save somebodies life. It feels really good, but I am stressed way the **** out.
Now I need to try and get a couple hours sleep and deal with the aftermath tomorrow before the swing shift.