I don't know what to do anymore
. I live in a small community where doctors are few and far between. I was diagnosed with bipolar two disoreder about
two years ago, which is interesting to deal with. I have been with my husband for 20 years now. Which is difficult enough alone, but then add the feelings and emotions of BP to a bad marraige. Isn't a good mix. And I cann't seem to find a good doctor. Monday I went for a medication check and the lady that does this, whom is a Phycistrist, laughed at something I said. She said the way I said it was funny to her
. It wasn't meant to be funny, I was serious, I had asked her for a second opionion I wanted to go see some one different and whom we have around here for that.. She not only didnt' give me this information, but laughed at me. When first diagnosed I was on Depercote and Seraqual, which worked great, but than with them I gained 100lbs, not good when you have a heart problem, cholesterol, tyroid, and high blood pressure. So I did some research and found Lamictial was the only medications out there that didn't cause weight gain.
I find that even if your on the right medications, you still need to have supportive doctor's which as I said we don't have around here. So you are stuck with who you get unless you travel two or more hours to see some one.
I would also recommend, until you get your life in order and cope with your illness, don't get into a relationship. And when you do, make sure this person is understanding, not like my hubby, whom seems to think its easy for me.. He does't get it. It gets mad at me, he yells, I cann't do anything or say anything right..So it just makes my living with BP worse..
I did file a report on that Phyitrist yesterday. But feel like crap that I had to do this. She put me in the position that I had no choice. And for some reason, I turn out to be the bad guy so to speak..
I am just reall frustrated and feed up. I am so tired of being sad, upset, and crying all the time. I just want to be happy and normal..
So I am new to this site and checking it out for my first time today. Thank you for all who read this and give me support.