I can definitely relate to how you are feeling. I have a really hard time with all the meds out there too. And it does get scary when you feel you are running out of meds to try. But hang in there. Just wanted to say something about my experience with Abilify. Very early after starting the drug I experienced pretty bad akathisia (definition: a state of motor restlessness, sometimes produced by neuroleptic medication, that ranges from a feeling of inner distress to an inability to sit still. )
I just wanted to let you know to be aware of it (not to cause you any extreme worry) because it is one of the side effects that if it occurs you have to report it to your doctor. I did, and was taken off it right away.
Most people who have posted they take Abilify have posted such positive experiences on this forum. In fact I don't think I've come across anything like what I experienced.
Please keep us posted and I am sending positive thoughts to you that this will finally be the med that helps you feel betta!!!
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 6 mg/day, Lexapro 10 mg/day & Lamictal 400 mg/day.