I can definitely relate to how you are feeling. I have a really hard time with all the meds out there too. And it does get scary when you feel you are running out of meds to try. But hang in there. Just wanted to say something about my experience with Abilify. Very early after starting the drug I experienced pretty bad akathisia (definition: a state of motor restlessness, sometimes produced by neuroleptic medication, that ranges from a feeling of inner distress to an inability to sit still. )
Thanks everybody! I have not started meds yet. since I have been sleeping like a "normal" person, I am feeling so much better. My job is really stressful (lay offs and no replacements) so everyone is doing 1-2 other peoples jobs. I have been trying to come in and do the best I can and let it go. I still have my samples and rx, I am trying my best to keep from taking them, we will see how long that will last. At my last PDoc appt., the top thing on my list to ask him was about taking me out of work, I did not even bring it up, why? I have no idea. Just cruising right now..............until I have to take that leap of faith and start meds again!
Non-med compliant Gem