For a long time, I had an alter-ego that nearly took over, she was outgoing, strong, brave, fearless, and a risktaker, she was everything I'm not now and I miss her all the time. But things got so bad that I eventually realized that I was her, and not me anymore. It wasn;t too bad, but it was at the same time.
Now a days, I miss what she had to offer, but I;m scared to allow even a small bit of her back into my life, because of how out of control she got.
I'm glad you brought this up though, because its something thats been on my mind lately since I've been having so many good days, I wonder if it;'s me, or if it's her creeping back in just a little.
Diagnosed Bipolar 1995
Successfully Treated now in 2009.
Abilify 2.5mg 1xpm, Seroquel XR 50-100mg PM. Topamax 75mg 2x daily