Happy Bill, Tortoise11, MMMnavy and Kiraz...
I cannot figure out how to post to individual replies, so hopefully I am getting everyone who replied to my post. I now the horse attack definitely has PTSD features to it. I mean, I can still see the attack vivid pictures. I have a professional book Called "Shattered Assumtions" where it basically says you have a view of your world....like all my life I have trusted horses and found them to be a safe refuge. When the horse attacked me for no reason, my trusting and safety assumptions were blown out of the water. I am still leary and scared around our other horses. I agree with you guys that this is more a case of PTSD than bi-polar. My psychiatrist just viewed the attack as plunging me into a huge bi-polar episode. He is not helping me with this view point, because he sees medication as the answer. As I said, I hunted down my therapist from 10 years ago, and he is taking the PTSD approach. He feels I should have gone into "talk" therapy right away. I am cutting down on the seroquel myself...in looking at other members meds, my dose of seraquel seems awfully high. I am hoping this helps deal with the overdrugged feeling, so I can concentrate on talk therapy. As a licensed counselor I have helped many people with PTSD, but I can't seem to apply those same prinicples to me. I thank all of you for confirming what I had an inkling was true...the PTSD and you have given me the courage to seek other avenues than my drug-happy psychiatrist.If anyone can tell me how to reply to individual posts I would appreciate it.
Agin thnak you to all 4 of you.
Bi-polarII; rapid cycler; Lithium 900 mg; Lamictal 200 mg; seraquel 450mg, klonopin 4mg