That's an interesting question.
I do feel different than others. I don't feel I have the same freedom as "normal" people. I have to take meds, everday for the rest of my life, likely. It could be a bright sun-shiny day and I am so deeply depressed I can't leave the house. Shopping comes with strict rules and for something that is supposed to be a pleasurable activity, with it usually comes regret and guilt. I talk so much so fast that the one listening looks surprised.
I think the biggest part that is different for me, is that this is a mood disorder. So I don't feel you can compare it to anyone else's "moody times". It is debilitating. Severe extremes sometimes mulitiple times/day.....The irritabiliy is above and beyond what others experience. The guilt, the shame, the fear.
Having said all of this, I would not change who I am for one minute. I am an incrediably strong person who loves deeply and who is deeply loved. I am creative, organized, kind and overall have a happy life (house, dog, cat, boyfriend, family and friends) and HW!
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 6 mg/day, Lexapro 10 mg/day & Lamictal 400 mg/day.