Just wanted to say welcome to HW. This forum is one of my best sources for support in my life with this illness.
Never be afraid to post what you are feeling, thinking or wondering. We really do "get it" and that is what we are all here for; to be here for each other.
I got through an abusive relationship too. It sounds like you are doing all the correct things, esp with the therapy.
Well, just wanted to say welcome, take care,