Is your mom part of your support system? Do you need to rework your support system? At some point, your mother will die. We all will. If she dies before you, you will need all the support you can possibly get! If your mom is a big part of your support system, you will be especially devestated if she dies before you do.
Make sure that YOU are taken care of. Your mom LOVES you and is concerned about you. She wants you to be OK if she dies. She is SO worried about YOU! Take care of yourself. Reach out to your friends, your church, your Dr's, your penpals and us.
Then take care of your mom. Tell her and show her how much you love her. If she does die, you will have given her the best thing possible - knowing that she is loved and that you will be safe in life without her.
1 more thing that might help you cope now and in the future. Get a pet together with your mom. It can be a tremendous comfort to both of you. And if your mom does die before you, holding that pet is a POWERFUL tool in grieving.
I hope it doesn't end that way, but I agree with PP: Plan for the worst and hope for the best.
Please keep us posted on both you and your mom. (((hug)))
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