Ok, take a deep breath and look at what you have posted.
You are being crazy creative. (Is this bad? NO, enjoy it)
You have been neglecting housework. (Honestly no one is going to remember you for how clean your house was. really it will be for other, better things than that. So is this bad, Not really) Messy, but not the end of the world.
I have a hard time remembering meds. (Yep, that is bad, you need to FOCUS on that. )
I want sex, more sex. (Sure, what time should we all come by. ) Really as long as you arnt out cheating on your hubby than its not an issue. I'm not being to graphic here but if your hubby cant help you help yourself, god knows its whats helped me when i get those cravings. Plus its the ultimate in safe sex.
Ok, so only one of the above things do you need to worry about, your meds. The rest is just you being you. Your mind is special, creative, interesting, and so much more. So there will be a crash, plan for it, make arrangements, get extra sleep, adjust your lifestyle to ride out this wave. This is my life every week, i just have decided to just hang on and enjoy the ride.
Hope this helps
I think I broke a record for my fastest mood swing ever. hypomanic to irritable to manic to depressed, panic and back to normal all in less than an hour. Just a few months ago it took 5 hours. I get scared. My swings have been getting consistently shorter over the last 10 years. From 1 year down to a couple hours. If htis continues, what is it going to look like in another 10 years? Will it be so brief it barely affects me? Or so overwhelming I can't do anything? Scary!
Whenever I get creative, I get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I know it is coming fast...
Anyhow, I'm temporarily OK now and I'm going to SLEEP tonight instead of hanging around here. :) Hold it together without me. lol
lol horse crazy. I didn't slept lightly (not usual for me) which is a bit of a warning sign. But I'm OK this morning (so far). I'm going to stay away from creative things, take my meds. Taking care of my rabbits, tending the garden, training my dogs and cleaning the house are thing that I haven't been "into" lately - but they are things I do enjoy and that help me feel balanced. Plus cleaning with help with what I perceive as relationship stress.
My SO and I haven't ever discussed roles or anything. I guess we have a silent agreement. Fine until I go a little nuts. :S He works 8-5 M-F, is oncall about 1/3 of the time. I don't work at a "real" job. I earn enough for my car payment and most of my rabbits' expenses... and that's about all. He covers the rest. (except for the last 2 weeks) I keep the house clean, take care of my son, take care of the dogs, have lunch on the table at 12:10, and dinner done around 5:30. When I don't live up to MY expectations for housework, I get really stressed out.
If I'm not 100% by next weekend somebody kick my butt and send me to the pdoc. I do know I'm not quite ready for my son to come home. He is on vacation with Grandma. I think once I feel OK about housework, I'll be ready to have him here.
I'm doing better. I felt really "off." It took a while to realize it was anxiety, not a BP thing. Well, anxiety about the BP thing. (If meds only worked for 2 motnhs, how soon until they don't work at all? etc, etc)
I know cleaning will eventually make me feel better. Otherwise I would sit on the couch on my computer and eventually end up depressed and lonely. and stressed out.
I started a list of things to do, but I kept it short and broke up big jobs into little parts. Do something off the list, then sit at the computer for 15 minutes, go do something else...
I was making the bed when I realized I had a Diet Coke yesterday for lunch. Caffiene is SOO bad for me! I'm not unstable, I'm caffienated! The anxiety is gone and I'm feeling stable again.
SP usually helps me avoid caffiene. But we were ordering and he said "Do you want a soda?" Of course I said YES! lol On our way out, after we ate, he asked "Was there caffiene in that?" YES! lol
I wish there was a caffiene-free Diet Coke. I love that stuff a bit too much.
Whew! THANK YOU for your support! (((hug)))