So I've been bipolar since I was very young, I know that for sure. And I've ALWAYS been so much more up than down - then about 3 years ago my mania got very severe and for a few years I was totally out of control, with only a few short depressive episodes in that time. Following that I crashed into the worst depression I've ever had. Since then its all been sort of reversed - my depression is totally out of control and I have very short hypomanic episodes. Whats happened? :C Is it just a part of the cycle, will I ever go back to how I was? I know its bad, but I miss how I was. I know I did completely awful, hurtful, dangerous things when I was manic but its still so much better than this! I used to feel so alive. Now I spend 90% of my time crying - then I have a teeny tiny hypomanic episode and I FINALLY feel happy - then its gone as soon as it came, and theres nothing I can do. :C I feel...trapped.
Has this ever happened to any of you?