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curdistal
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Date Joined Jun 2010
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   Posted 6/20/2010 6:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Everyone,

I'm new here and just recently diagnosed with Bipolar II. I've only been on meds for about a week and a half and have started on very low doses of Lamictal and Celexa. Haven't noticed any changes in how I feel but then again, it hasn't been long and I'm on low doses.

I'm struggling with being able to tell anyone close to me. Bipolar Disorder seems to have such negative connotations that I worry about telling people and just being treated as if I'm crazy. My husband has been very supportive though and I take comfort in that.

I've been having a rough time with this recent diagnosis...I think it's sent me deeper into depression and I feel like there's no hope for me. I'm really struggling with the idea of being medicated for the rest of my life...it's all very overwhelming...

Any advice or words of wisdom that any of you may have would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Post Edited (curdistal) : 6/20/2010 9:02:44 PM (GMT-6)


happy bill
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   Posted 6/21/2010 5:04 AM (GMT -7)   

 

   First welcome, this is a great board to ask questions, vent, or just to cry. The people here well and truley understand who you are and what you are going thru.

   It may help you to approach this as you  would the grieving process. You are grieving for your old life that is now gone, and learning to live with a new life that has a big scary monster in it. BP

   That said, it isnt the end of the world. Sun Zue said  in the Art of War "Know your enemy and know yourself and you will allways be victorious"  In this case the enemy is BP, and boy is he a hand full. It will take time to learn what it can do and what it can't do. Soon enough before you realize it you will find acceptance, and through acceptance we can find peace.

  And your right, most people have a negative view of BP or any mental disorder. We arnt allowed to wear Pink Shirts so the world can know that we suffer from some desease. Nope we get to suffer in silence. And yes, that sucks big time. I'm glad you have a supportive husband, he will be a great help in helping you get a handle on this puppy. However understand that he is human, and there will be days that you will have to rely on others other than him to get you thru a day. Thats why places like this are so good for people  like us.

  Ok, i've blabbed on long enough. Keep reading and posting. And dont be afraind of posting about something that has allready been posted about. We understand this is all new to you and you will have lots of questions, and we are here to answer them.

 

 Bill


 
   "If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
 
   "It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself."  Happy Bill
 
   Meds. Respirdal  0.5 a day, more if needed.


mogli
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Date Joined Mar 2006
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   Posted 6/21/2010 5:24 AM (GMT -7)   

Hello,

Welcome to HW yeah We are glad you are here.

This is a great place for information and most importantly support. We are all here for each other and in times where we feel alone, we can take comfort to come here and vent or ask for help; HW has helped me with this illness more than I can put into words.

I know when the diagnosis comes it is overwhelming for sure. I believe that knowledge is power; so when I was diagnosed, I went to the bookstore (which is my favourite place anyway) and bought some books and they really comforted me knowing that this illness is tough, but manageable on some levels. HW has a resource directory (at the top of the page) and it is helpful too. And asking questions here helps a lot. 

The meds will take some time, but hopefully this first combination is a success for you. Lean on the professional support around you and it is really good to hear that your husband is by your side. I agree with Bill that some days your partner may struggle with this, but if for the most part he is supportive and nurturing, then you are already a step ahead of most and very lucky.

Take special care, take things slow and things will settle for you.

Hugs,

Mogs.


Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as neededMethoprazine 12 mg/day, Mirapex working up to 2.25 mg/day, Lamictal 400mg/day


curdistal
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Date Joined Jun 2010
Total Posts : 5
   Posted 6/21/2010 2:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you both for the supportive words. It really means a lot to me.

I had an appointment with my therapist today and I think it went pretty well. I told her a lot about how I've been feeling about the diagnosis and all the "baggage" that seems to come along with it. I always feel better after I see her but sometimes my feeling better is very short-lived.

I'm going to do my best to stay hopeful that my meds and therapy will help me and I'm going to do my best to educate myself as much as I can about BP.

Thanks again!
~Crystal

happy bill
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Date Joined Nov 2008
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   Posted 6/21/2010 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
 
  Good for you crystal. Hope therpay continues to work for you. It took about 10 months to get me centered, and about a year on the meds to discover what doseage worked. Plus it took a couple of different meds to find what worked for me. So dont get discouraged, this isnt a sprint, its a marathon.
 
  And i'm one of the "nuts" around here who choses to view this as a gift, not a curse. (heck i cant return it, might as well make the best of it).  Yes i am special because of BP, but i love deeper, harder, and feel more than "normal" people do. I experience more of the world of emotions, all the colors of the rainbow, where most normal people just experience the TV test pattern. tongue   tongue tongue tongue tongue
 
   In my life, my greatest successes with BP came once i accepted that this was who i was, and who i will be. That i did nothing wrong to become BP (like smoke 2 packs a day and end up with lung cancer) that i am exactly as god intended me to be. And who am i to argue with God's version of perfection smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin smilewinkgrin yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
 
   Just keep an upbeat attitude, and though there will be days that you lose to BP, if you stay focused and aware you will win the war.
 
   Bill
 
   "If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
 
   "It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself."  Happy Bill
 
   Meds. Respirdal  0.5 a day, more if needed.

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