First welcome, this is a great board to ask questions, vent, or just to cry. The people here well and truley understand who you are and what you are going thru.
It may help you to approach this as you would the grieving process. You are grieving for your old life that is now gone, and learning to live with a new life that has a big scary monster in it. BP
That said, it isnt the end of the world. Sun Zue said in the Art of War "Know your enemy and know yourself and you will allways be victorious" In this case the enemy is BP, and boy is he a hand full. It will take time to learn what it can do and what it can't do. Soon enough before you realize it you will find acceptance, and through acceptance we can find peace.
And your right, most people have a negative view of BP or any mental disorder. We arnt allowed to wear Pink Shirts so the world can know that we suffer from some desease. Nope we get to suffer in silence. And yes, that sucks big time. I'm glad you have a supportive husband, he will be a great help in helping you get a handle on this puppy. However understand that he is human, and there will be days that you will have to rely on others other than him to get you thru a day. Thats why places like this are so good for people like us.
Ok, i've blabbed on long enough. Keep reading and posting. And dont be afraind of posting about something that has allready been posted about. We understand this is all new to you and you will have lots of questions, and we are here to answer them.