Thanks for the replies. The day started out okay for me; feeling almost stable, but now I've come back down. As far as the stressors...I don't know what to do or where to start. Especially about Mom's cancer.
As far as my Dad and step Mom are concerned, I am just avoiding them, and that is working okay. My step Mom is being really hurtful and my Dad is really on her side. So that is toxic and something I need to cut out of my life right now. I don't like it, but it's a must at this point.
My work should pick up in the next couple of weeks as my one boss is returning from her maternity leave, so I am really happy about that. It should bring more work my way, at least I hope it does.
The money woes aren't going to go away. Bf though has been doing a lot to help me out. I think though that is what kills me; I don't want him to be shoveling out money for me. At least I can say I have not shopped whatsoever in ages.
I have a TON of housework to do this week. Overwhelming for sure, but need to do it to feel better when the house is clean. I am going to try to do some major bp reading from some of my books this weekend.
Anyway, OOH wait, I almost forgot! A secretary that I work with lives in the same area I do, and so we are going to walk together in the park one night a week. There, that is something I can pat myself on the back for ...Take care guys I will check in on the weekend.
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 12 mg/day, Mirapex 1.5mg/day, Lamictal 400mg/day