Welcome Dee! I live in Ontario as well. I am so sorry for your loss. I understand finanically you are struggling but I'm wondering about the negative effects of living with your mother who is drinking a lot? It just doesn't help you... Our everyday living environments are crucial to being as healthy as we can be...
I can't imagine being on disability, from a financial point of view. There are days where I really feel I'd be better off not working, but I know I could never afford it. And money stress is so detrimental to me I wouldn't be able to handle such little support. I hear you about counselling. Ask Ontario Works if there are any other options in your community; they should know that information.
Keep taking those meds, keep listening to music and keep posting!!!!
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 12 mg/day, Mirapex 1.5mg/day, Lamictal 400mg/day