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Deebipolar
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Date Joined Jun 2010
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   Posted 6/26/2010 7:40 PM (GMT -7)   
ok my name is Dee I have been diagnosed as manic depressive also known as bipolar. What is killing me is the depression. I lost my husband October 17 2009 to a methadone od and I can not handle it. I moved in with my mother who drinks every day and dose not understand why I don't feel like doing anything. I had a panic attack last night  I just took some clonazapram and it calmed me down.  I phoned a therapist but its 60 dollars a hour I am on dissabilaty and cant afford that but I need counseling. I say up to 3 am and wake up about 2pm in the afternoon. I have to make all my appointments after 3 pm because I just cant make it to them. I lost interest in the things I once loved to do. Like go down to the water and take pictures and plastic canvas. I still keep my camera charged just in case I want to go for a walk. my mp3 player broke and I love music. the song one last breath by creed fits me right now. I want to get out of this depression I want to feel better  I want help. I also have a 6 year old little girl that needs me. my mom takes her to day care/ school and I pick her up. I still read my harry potter books though I really like reading. I am taking saraquil and cylexa for my bipolar and take it as prescribed.

heres a picture of me and Emily my daughter.
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Post Edited By Moderator (happy bill) : 6/26/2010 8:55:40 PM (GMT-6)


happy bill
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   Posted 6/26/2010 8:00 PM (GMT -7)   
 
  Hi dee, thanks for posting. I had to edit your post since we cant discuss self harm here (We have members as young as 13 here)  Aside from that its tough out there. I would first work on seeing if you can get disability to pay for your therpay. ALso save as much as you can and get yourself a new mp3 player. Music is so imortant to people like us.
 
  Also feel free to post here and see if you can find some answers here. THere is a wealth of experience here to pull in from.
 
  GOod luck  Bill 
 
 
   "If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
 
   "It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself."  Happy Bill
 
   Meds. Respirdal  0.5 a day, more if needed.


Deebipolar
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Date Joined Jun 2010
Total Posts : 2
   Posted 6/26/2010 8:29 PM (GMT -7)   
I asked disability if they would pay for it they said no they would not. They told me to go to Ontario works and maybe they have a program to help me with it. So I will phone them I will get a new mp3 player on Wednesday thats when i get money next. This time i will buy a more pricey one lol the other one was cheap. maybe i will go to a pawn shop they would have a good one for a cheap price. everyone has gone to bed now and I feel better. thats why i like staying up no one bugs me and I can relax. I am getting some new fish tomorrow so that should perk me up a bit.
single mom with many fish tanks


red lightening
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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 6/27/2010 6:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome Deebipolar!
That is an awesome picture of you and your daughter.
Sounds like you're in a tough situation right now...depression
is a horrible life choking illness but thank God for meds...they
work really well for me for about 6-9 months then I'm back in
the hole again. I've found this site to be full of understanding people.
Glad you're here and welcome!

mogli
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Date Joined Mar 2006
Total Posts : 1191
   Posted 6/29/2010 7:51 AM (GMT -7)   

Welcome Dee! I live in Ontario as well. I am so sorry for your loss. I understand finanically you are struggling but I'm wondering about the negative effects of living with your mother who is drinking a lot? It just doesn't help you... Our everyday living environments are crucial to being as healthy as we can be...

I can't imagine being on disability, from a financial point of view. There are days where I really feel I'd be better off not working, but I know I could never afford it. And money stress is so detrimental to me I wouldn't be able to handle such little support. I hear you about counselling. Ask Ontario Works if there are any other options in your community; they should know that information.

Keep taking those meds, keep listening to music and keep posting!!!!

Mogs.


Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 12 mg/day, Mirapex 1.5mg/day, Lamictal 400mg/day

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