That is the true curse of this desease, you honestly cant tell if what you are feeling is what you are feelign or is what your BP is telling you to feel. Lordy, just give me a little clarity. LOL LOLLOL
Medications have helped me greatly with gaining some clarity in my life. Still other problems continue to exist and bug me now and again. Like i said, its hard to tell if i am feeling this or is the BP making seem that way.
ALl in all i tend not to make many rash life changing decisions without thinking long and hard about it. I accept that i am this way and that mistakes will be made, so i do the best i can to reduce the damage the mistakes can make in my life. I know that to try for a completely sympton free life with no mistakes ever is a fools errand. For what ever reason God decided that i should carry this burden awhile. So i will. But i will do my best to "OWN" Bp. Because otherwise BP will "OWN" me. And that is something i just cant let happen, not without a huge knock down drag out fight.
FOr you i would start with getting some meds into your system to get you stable. And stable doesnt happen overnight. It takes a lot of work to find stability in this world. Just take each day as it comes, and tommrrow can take care of itself.