I read your posts the next day and they were a comfort.
I can't really talk about not having my meds b/c of the insurance company not willing to help b/c it upsets me too much.
I did email pdoc Friday, knowing already that he would not have samples of Lamotrigine. He said that company doesn't sample out. There is nothing I can do until this is fixed. It makes me absolutely furious to say the least.
I'm not really having any physical withdrawls, but my depression has gotten even worse if imaginable.
I slept all day yesterday. I am at work this morning although I don't want to be here at all.
As far as the friends go, I give up. My one close friend has been in the Netherlands for the past two years and she is moving home early August, so at least I can depend on her.
Tortoise, thank you for the offer to chat. I had to go help my sister pack b/c they bought a house and are moving in a couple weeks. She is 7 1/2 months pregnant with two kids so they needed help! Her and her hubby both have full time jobs too! So I wasn't home Saturday, and yesterday I slept.
I regret telling my one pdoc boss about my illness. She hasn't done anything negative. I just regret it. But my pdoc is aware of the situation and he is frustrated about the meds too. All I can do is hang in there.
Thanks again to all. Hugs all around and I"ll try to be around more.
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 12 mg/day, Mirapex 1.5mg/day, Lamictal 400mg/day