Breathe Mogs. Wow, this is bad timing for you. I am so sorry.
Call your pdoc right away and see if they have any drug samples for you! Isn't your boss a pdoc? Can she give you samples?
I would really hate for you to have to start over on Lamictal at 25 mg at this time.
I think you should take a leave of absense, unless you feel safer when you are busy and away from home. If nothing else, tell your boss the situation so she won't be upset/alarmed if your performance is not 100%.
If you take a leave of absense, would spending time with your mom help?
Worst case scenario - go to the hospital for a week. You can get back on Lamictal safely, under observation and get a break from work and your relationship.
I'm sorry mogs, that sucks big time. As for friends, thats why i got a dog. LOL LOL LOL Honestly i just rely on myself. If i want to go do something then i go and do it, mostly by myself, or i go with the big puppy, Thor.
Hope you feel better soon and get that medication thing under control.
I read your posts the next day and they were a comfort.
I can't really talk about not having my meds b/c of the insurance company not willing to help b/c it upsets me too much.
I did email pdoc Friday, knowing already that he would not have samples of Lamotrigine. He said that company doesn't sample out. There is nothing I can do until this is fixed. It makes me absolutely furious to say the least.
I'm not really having any physical withdrawls, but my depression has gotten even worse if imaginable.
I slept all day yesterday. I am at work this morning although I don't want to be here at all.
As far as the friends go, I give up. My one close friend has been in the Netherlands for the past two years and she is moving home early August, so at least I can depend on her.
Tortoise, thank you for the offer to chat. I had to go help my sister pack b/c they bought a house and are moving in a couple weeks. She is 7 1/2 months pregnant with two kids so they needed help! Her and her hubby both have full time jobs too! So I wasn't home Saturday, and yesterday I slept.
I regret telling my one pdoc boss about my illness. She hasn't done anything negative. I just regret it. But my pdoc is aware of the situation and he is frustrated about the meds too. All I can do is hang in there.
Thanks again to all. Hugs all around and I"ll try to be around more.